Do not feel discouraged because you feel the need to conform to the ways of the majority, stay true to yourself - you are unique and special and see things in a realistic and meaningful way. Know that you were not made to be alone, though we have tendencies to be on our own most of the time, since we feel ourselves and can be totally free that way. Instead, be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you will approve that which is good and acceptable and the perfect will in your life, who you were made to live, dont feel hopeless okay? God loves you so much and takes away your emptiness - that void feeling which is real tiring to live out...
I found what i was looking for in my whole life - everything i would ever need - Jesus, He truly knows our hearts and everything we ever care to think about... and the millions and millions of thoughts which run through your head all day long ~!
Begin doing the things you used to enjoy - the thing which make you who you are, which refreshes your mind and fills your heart with meaning - the things the majority of the people in this world dont really care about or view as unimportant. Do that you will find who you are when you live out your purpose. Take time to generate more optimistic thoughts - speaking on my side, i used to have a tendency of being more pessimistic about life - because we just see things so empty and meaningless most of the time...
Think about who you are. Who you were made to be. What higher purpose God has arranged for you. The way you are able to be yourself when you are alone.Then... when you gain confidence over your newfound or hidden abilities (these could be things you were into all along; identify them, these things were meant to help you develop out of your introverted personality - to gain more confidence and strength doing things you just were not inclined to do so naturally. - like a fish out of water, a mudskipper really..
Next understand that the loneliness cannot be possibly be contented by any human being - this stems from the fact that we are introspective and think about deep and meaningful things - things we observe and consider and take in to reflect, and because we think this way - the feeling of loneliness arises because we feel no one else understands things or sees it the way we do, we cant find someone to share how we feel, thats why we need to get these feelings out! and where better to direct them but to God through Jesus! For His thoughts are not our thoughts, nor His ways our ways, as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are His thoughts higher than our thoughts, and His ways higher than our ways. Because God's ways and His understanding of things so vast, deep and unsearchable, we can be assured that He understands more than we do!
When we share what is in our heart with God, we will be able to get out the inexpressible burdens no man may carry or share.
Finally - living out your purpose is very important as a gifted person, doing thing which are routine to you makes you tire easily because you are constantly finding ways to improve and to feed your mind through thinking - thinking is what makes you. And when routine plays out day after day, it is very boring, indeed. I sometimes get sick of doing the same thing over and over again (like eating, sleeping, computer) i gradually got rid of all these things which does not give me the energy i need but rather i began living out my childhood hobbies and interests - like fishing though i dont really catch anything;and walking in the park and looking at the trees.) Do what you like!
Your purpose is simply to live out who you are, not to live out the norms of society, environment. You should go out of your way to begin deriving strength through the things which matter to you meaningfully - when you gain the strength you need doing meaningful things and communicating with God by sharing your thoughts, it is more than enough for the day and you wont feel exhausted as you are when you fail to break the routine. Dont worry too much and keep finding creative sources and things you love doing! dont think about tomorrow, for tomorrow has its own troubles.
"But by the grace of God I am what I am, and His grace toward me was not in vain.."
- 1 Corinthians 15:10
Alright girl! finally SMILE okay?
Good night, and God bless,
Your introverted friend....